I Vote For Darkness

There were moments I can’t clearly grasp until this very day. Everything those stain as memories are evaporating slowly but certainly. Even for the most solid ones, they were being covered in some dark dust and mist.

Yes, I was one try to recall all those moments to the present time, let them become clear one more time even in my mortal memory. It has been aged when I met that one, I was still playing with dust, grass, and water on the unused rice fields with my other pals. I can’t remember how could I trapped for a while in that place, I guess it was on the far far away village (I mean very now from my usual childhood playground).

I was helping my pals flying some kites on a drying rice field. The weather was perfect so we could quickly make all the kites danced in the sky. We were having a good time with some mangos ready to serve. Some kids seemed to be the local came after us, they had a plastic ball with them; yes, they would like to play soccer since the sun was about to set in a couple hours.

Fortunately, they invited us to play along, well…, Nothing we can do because we have done with the mangos and the kites already touched the white clouds – the cirrus. We played with a mixed man in both teams so there would be no hesitation to get some bump or lump.

After some half and quarter hours, I got tired and took rest beside a small irrigation canal, hmmm… the grass felt so soft. No longer than after me, more kids had taken their break time (okay… I never get the cool part on any sport). Beside me, one stranger…, ups…, I mean one of the local kid took his seat on the grass.

Ah…, what a play….” He talked while seemed to be gazing through the reddish sky.

Pardon me…?” I was curious if he talked to me unintentionally.

He surprised and turned to me, “Oh…, no…, no…, I just glad to have a wonderful moment.”

Yes, me too, it was a great moment.” I felt the same way for sure, what can I say more when we are kids have played together on a playground even in a new place.

It was…?

Yes…?

You said ‘it was a great moment’…, that ‘it was.’

I see…, is there a matter…?

He laughed and said, “No…, nothing matter, you were right, it was. And how about this moment, it is wonderful too, or it isn’t?

It is wonderful.” I captured just moment to let my self-knowing what I said, “what we are talking about?

This moment, this very moment is a happy moment, right?” He again gazed into the sky. “I and so maybe you already have so much of this kind of moments till this day, it shall not last forever. This moment is like our lights of happiness, lot… a lot of lights, comes and goes, do you this these light real ones?

It never lasts forever, yes, since I do not know what a future is. But I can not reach what you mean by the real one?

He smiled upon me, “Life so similar like a game or a drama, where we can play and become an actor. People love the moment where a drama turns into a happy moment, and sad when a terrible scenario could not avoid them. So do I, love such a moment just like this one, I can fell the touch of the wind, the sound of water which flows in the canal behind us, the warmth of the sun, the voices of nature, this feeling is so unexplainable. But I know somehow, I fall in love with this moment, or I may say that I afraid to lose it…

Right I get it, just go on…” Once he looked at me if I were listening to those words.

These lights just like shadows that change and go when other lights exist, or in otherwise they just gone without the other lights. My sister ever told me that there was a true light, which I do not need to search it everywhere, the light that shall not disappear when another lights exist nor a shadow that disappears without another light. People sometimes mixed it with myth and legend, and call it the eternal heaven.”

Wow…, wait…, wait…, wait…, all those words now become so hard to swallow. Why that become so complicated. Maybe rhetorically yes. But how can light exist without darkness?”

Hmmm…, you talk deeply through it. One can’t know the light without knowing what darkness is, nor one could understand light without touching the darkness, if they are only names then they would never exist at all, the true learning is the very understanding itself.”

“…” I was in silence, I was not quite sure getting along.

For a while, we let our view flow with nature. The Western horizon’s red color became darker than before. Some kids still on the playground for the second time.

A soft voice calling from behind us, the boy beside me turn his face.

Sister…?!” He surprised by himself.

For a moment I was trapped on de’ javu like time.

I now understand a little bit Sis, when we understand if both of the darkness and the light are one and the become nothing at all.”

That beautiful girl smile upon him, “That’s good, but only understanding it logically will give no help. Now you should move on the practically my dear.”

Then, I need to understand the darkness itself to the very root.” He said back to his sister, just like on an election, one would say, “I vote for darkness.”

She then turned his eyes on me, “Nice to meet you again here young one, thanks for whispering my little brother.” Her smile was like a petrified charm. “Now the sun will set soon, we must return home. I get a feeling we will meet again someday, just like we used to be now.” Then they said goodbye.

I thought my self under the petrified charm. I just can not understand what was happening at that time, nor got any meaning of it. “Why she seems to know me…?” My mind kept asking that simple question. Wait…, wasn’t she the mysterious girl from back there? I remembered another moment in my life, which the stories I already told on “The Half Winged Butterfly.” Then what was she mean by “met again?”.

On the way home after sunset, my pals asked me if I were okay.

Why…?” I asked them.

Nothing, just some of us noticed that you seemed to talk by yourself back there.”

Ah…, I’m fine… don’t worry.”

On my mind, I would yell, “Oh no…! It is happening again!”

Quote of the day:
I hate television. I hate it as much as I hate peanuts. But I can’t stop eating peanuts. – Orson Welles

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20 Comments

  1. mmmhh

    you will become a zombie or :ghost: or :skeleton: or :alien: or another inhuman creatures – if you keep waking

    ck ck ck ck ck ga ngantuk?

    i think i eat to much meat (that UK guy brought me lots of meats) – now i am having soar stomach
    .-= Titut´s last blog ..IGNORANCE =-.

    Suka

    Balas

  2. hahahahahahahaha

    we are still having soft rain here…
    it’s good. i love being dripping wet.
    i love the smell of the :rain:
    i love the sound of the :thunder:
    i love to see the :rainbow:
    it is like :musicnote:
    *hujan, jangan berhenti ya*
    .-= Titut´s last blog ..IGNORANCE =-.

    Suka

    Balas

  3. 🙂

    mine is navy blue

    i :heart: :rain: and :thunder: but i prefer ….. *hmmmm ga ada iconnya niiii*

    i prefer a good quality rain coat, and two free hands.
    .-= Titut´s last blog ..IGNORANCE =-.

    Suka

    Balas

  4. wooohooooooo!!!!!!!!!! 🙂

    :handcuffs: on :heart:

    no, that person won’t lose you!

    — we are waiting for the right moment. everything has its own time, no? —-

    ps. aku barusan dapat tempat dimana bisa beli pisang kepok, dong hehe
    my daughter is eating fried pisang kepok (sama plek plek plek dg yg di indonesia)
    .-= Titut´s last blog ..IGNORANCE =-.

    Suka

    Balas

  5. sure, it is….

    *btw wordpress introduces new software, assisting to find home address from blog address. have tried?*
    .-= Titut´s last blog ..IGNORANCE =-.

    Suka

    Balas

  6. Oooh..

    knock knock…
    “POOOOOSSSSSSSSSSTTTTMAN!”

    “hello sir, good morning. please sign here – a parcell from a friend”

    ===signed by cahya===

    “well, sir. thank you. enjoy your blanket and heater – you can open your door now to enjoy the breeze from outside. Good day!”
    .-= Titut´s last blog ..IGNORANCE =-.

    Suka

    Balas

  7. It is a domesticated monkey not a wild one :monkey: = peliharaan sejak kecil

    Hmm…, why need a key? I only said it is a closed door, not a locked door 😀

    Because the weather seems very cold, so I closed the door 😉

    Suka

    Balas

  8. eh? monkey attack? hiiii ngeri amat? dari mana datangnya? rabies ga tuh?

    closed door? wait! wait!
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    I got the key! Should I give to somebody? I can post it today ==> so she can open the closed door hehe *she? rite?*
    .-= Titut´s last blog ..IGNORANCE =-.

    Suka

    Balas

  9. Mbak Titut,

    That’s the wholeness of a blured memory. I can’t recall them in a clear vision. So I can’t be sure :clover:

    Ah…, a soulmate? Well…, I find a hard time to definite the word. Acording to Wikipedia Soulmate is…

    Soulmate is a term sometimes used to designate someone with whom one has a feeling of deep and natural affinity, love, intimacy, sexuality, spirituality, and/or compatibility. A related concept is that of the twin flame or twin soul – which is thought to be the ultimate soulmate, the one and only other half of one’s soul, for which all souls are driven to find and join. However, not everyone who uses these terms intends them to carry such mystical connotations.

    My natural maybe a lover, if someone care me enough, I’ll give my care in the equal manner.

    But to find such as mysterious and powerful bond between a couple souls? I think there would be no chance, at least not for all people. Moreover, for now, I’m a closed door . I used to be alone long time ago, it just another starting in this life where I would be happily to take my journey by my self only.

    Well, this morning I little bit get a nervous situation. There was an accident with domesticated monkey in my dormitary, he attacked the owner and making a serious injury with much bleeding. What a shock.

    Suka

    Balas

  10. *merinding*

    have you ever met this girl before?
    do you believe in soulmate? *i do*

    how’s your day? i’m improving, and you?

    🙂
    .-= titut´s last blog ..POWER =-.

    Suka

    Balas

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