In the Line of Your Smile

It was this year’s Christmas, around a new humble brick house, in the middle of green rice fields, when the sun hidden between the cloudy sky, after the mountain wind gently danced around what we call a family. Yes, it was there I met you again after a while. Lanjutkan membaca “In the Line of Your Smile”

Run! Run! Happiness is Chasing You Down!

Ah yes, I remember again that for a lot of people, life is about pursuit of happiness. There were moment when we see people tirelessly chase their dreams, ideals, or perhaps in a simpler way – their life! Yes, you met so hard that you desperately tried everything, just to survive. And that survival would be the form of your very happiness. Lanjutkan membaca “Run! Run! Happiness is Chasing You Down!”

Merry Christmas 2010

Last year, there was someone special who shared a Christmas moment with me. We have so much dreams – our dreams I would say for that very blissful moment. I think, if there is something called as happiness – it has to be that very moment we spend together. Then I found time created different story to tell – she is no longer by my side.

When all dreams shattered in instant, you will have nothing left behind but a simple fact that … you have to walk just by yourself. I know, she wouldn’t be here again even when I need her most. I know how she loves Christmas so much, she used to has a beautiful smile when talking and listening songs about Christmas, and I don’t know how those smiles uniquely encouraged me in many untellable ways, letting go my loneliness and let a warm togetherness enters my heart.

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Merry Christmas 2010

Last year, there was someone special who shared a Christmas moment with me. We have so much dreams – our dreams I would say for that very blissful moment. I think, if there is something called as happiness – it has to be that very moment we spend together. Then I found time created different story to tell – she is no longer by my side.

When all dreams shattered in instant, you will have nothing left behind but a simple fact that … you have to walk just by yourself. I know, she wouldn’t be here again even when I need her most. I know how she loves Christmas so much, she used to has a beautiful smile when talking and listening songs about Christmas, and I don’t know how those smiles uniquely encouraged me in many untellable ways, letting go my loneliness and let a warm togetherness enters my heart.

Since she’s no longer in the world where I still stand & breath freely, I don’t know whether she would smile or not in this Christmas. But – yes I know – she would smile like she used to be, bring warm and happiness to every soul who see it. And it would bring peace upon me.

Well, its Christmas now. Miracles and peace should be all around. Don’t worry there is no way you can’t get any, just open your heart – it should be there, right in front of your heart’s door. What would do in Christmas? For me, maybe I would like to listen one of my Christmas favourite song, you might already now this song…

I don’t want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don’t care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree

I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you

I don’t want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
And I don’t care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree

I don’t need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won’t make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day

I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you

I won’t ask for much this Christmas
I won’t even wish for snow
And I, I just wanna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe

I won’t make a list and send it
To the North Pole for St. Nick
I won’t even stay awake
To hear those magic reindeer click

Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding onto me so tight
What more can I do
Oh baby, all I want for Christmas is you

All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of childrens’
Laughter fills the air

And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won’t you bring me
The one I really need

Won’t you please bring my baby to me, quickly
I don’t want a lot for Christmas
This is all I’m asking for
I just wanna see my baby

Standing right outside my door
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true

Baby, all I want for Christmas is you
All I want for Christmas is you, baby

Yes, it is “All I want for Christmas is You” a song by Mariah Carey – a singer and songwriter. I love listening this song when Christmas comes. Hope you like it too.

And here is my Christmas’ card that I’ve made it special for all my friends (including my family in Moonlight Mansion) who is celebrating Christmas – wherever you are right now. Merry Christmas to all of you, may be peace upon all of us.

My Christmas Card

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Idea of Being Happy

Pursuit of happiness, that what most people seek in their life. I think – for myself – this idea of being happy, has already long time gone without a single trace. I do not disagree about seeking a happy life, well, happiness is the very root of a life fully above this earth. I love seeing people live a happy life, the scene was amazingly joyful.

I’ve walk the path of darkness, and pursuing happiness neither in any part of it. I do not feel that this life must be conditions by the act – the path – of pursuing something that might crashed and blinded in its’ path.

When you feel unhappy, when you feel sorrow is unavoidable, you might just run away to thou who give you a feel of security & comfort. Or you may stand and challenge the life face by face. But its never fill the gaps between you and the unhappiness, except a thin film of security, happiness or the proud of being able to conquer this life.

Life is me, the unhappiness is me, the happiness is me – they are merely the other expressions of me. Running from myself won’t make me go any further, fighting myself won’t let me solve the matter. But I know, accepting myself would be a chance to understand myself fully.

Which implies, understanding the happiness & unhappiness. Pursuing happiness only makes me end by separating it – by separating myself. How could I am separating myself? Or could you?

To life fully, understanding is the beginning of everything. And within it, I’ve exclude the idea of being happy. When happiness comes, let it enter my deepest chamber of gratitude, when sadness returns, welcome it by warm and gentle smile.

Closest Rainbow at Farthest Sky

Have you ever felt to be stand in a distance to something you dearest most? And the space then expanded until what you still able to see – only – the grasp memory of the one.

We might be never can do something with space and time continuum, as how law of physic do its duty on this material world. But, the question then – can we, obviously, do anything about this feeling of separation?

If we let this feeling of separation exist, than we might only create the opposite of our heart content. We – then – become a separatist. Well, its connotation bad enough to be heard. But we do not really need bring about this separatism in our life.

Separatism only creates conflict, then conflict becomes hatred, as we already now hatred only presents sorrow and pain for humanity. Because of our longing to the closest rainbow at the farthest sky, we has bring about abundant of misfortune to our life, and others’ life, to the world.

Yes my friend, there is nothing wrong with longing of something. It is the part of our heart’s nature to attract of something. But if the closest rainbow were far enough, that doesn’t mean if we can create a rainbow right here right now, which would fulfilling the world of humanity with pure happiness and kindness.

An Orchid’s Face

Then I have met you within the range of simple motion of temporary moment. Its just me who didn’t know how to share that precious moment in a good term & manner, since my ignorance of a complete fool & egoistic soul made me blind & deaf.

I know you love orchids so much, and your smiling face just so charming as those orchids when you looked at them. I was a man without a dream, and your happy gestures every time you were talking about orchids made me realized how was dream can be so beautiful.

I knew somewhere in the past I did promise you to help making a beautiful plantation of orchids in your home garden (or ours?). But I’m very sorry, I have ruined everything to the very root of those dreams. I really love to fulfilling our promises, but again, without any words more – I am truly sorry.

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