When a restless mind comes, I don’t want just to stay still. I want to dance with the rain, I want to walk within the wind. When a restless mind comes, I just can’t let myself being alone.
I do love everything just being simple, perhaps since I am a complicated person. If I put something more complicated into my life, it would ruin everything. So a minimal exposure of complicated matters would be my policy, whether inside or outside.
Back when I was about 8 – 10 years old, I used to think that the word “home” and “house” were having the same meaning in English, “a place where you live“, or at least, they have the same translation when come into my native language. But then I found, they were not used in the same manner. Commonly when we said “house“, it implied that we need something physically build to refer it.
Even my head starts to ache since this morning and the morning before, deep inside – somehow – I feel strangely lighter than before. I don’t know, whether this is the feeling we get when we manage – again, somehow – to let go the past; or it just a temporary stillness before the incoming of a great storm.
Perhaps you ever heard someone were asking to meet a professional that can help him for some personal problems, like stress maybe. “I need to find my physiatrist, I can find the way out of my burden right now.” Yes, something like that perhaps a close example, or maybe a simple ask for a friend’s advice.
Well, if I say I need for help, maybe since I can’t not handle the problem myself. Or, I – perhaps – able to handle the problem myself, but I just can’t see the way to make it done nicely. In another words, my mind are cloudy, my judge on the matter would be wavering.
There is an old wisdom quote which said no matter how hard people was trying to bring about peace upon this world, there would be no peace they shall find, if there is no peace within oneself.
We have hardly believe or simple put it in our faith, if humanity can bring together into a mutual understanding, there will be peace upon this world. But, our world already in state of chaos, as how we see it in our daily life, on the news, on the conflicts those occur everyday.
Lately, I’ve realised that my focus decreased significantly. Like when I turned left when wished to go to right side. Hmm…, I think I should consider some new solution for this issue.
Otherwise, the deliberation would make me feel like Vincent Law on the “Ergo Proxy”. Well, dealing with the unknown was never easy, wasn’t it?
I think its about…, life fully.