Pouring Wisdom for Nation

A couple of nights ago, I have a discussion about writing a book. Well, I never put any interest before about book writing, since I don’t like the idea about sharing thought just to some buyers. But I think that perhaps I was a complete stubborn (and yet don’t change at all).

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Merry Christmas 2010

Last year, there was someone special who shared a Christmas moment with me. We have so much dreams – our dreams I would say for that very blissful moment. I think, if there is something called as happiness – it has to be that very moment we spend together. Then I found time created different story to tell – she is no longer by my side.

When all dreams shattered in instant, you will have nothing left behind but a simple fact that … you have to walk just by yourself. I know, she wouldn’t be here again even when I need her most. I know how she loves Christmas so much, she used to has a beautiful smile when talking and listening songs about Christmas, and I don’t know how those smiles uniquely encouraged me in many untellable ways, letting go my loneliness and let a warm togetherness enters my heart.

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Merry Christmas 2010

Last year, there was someone special who shared a Christmas moment with me. We have so much dreams – our dreams I would say for that very blissful moment. I think, if there is something called as happiness – it has to be that very moment we spend together. Then I found time created different story to tell – she is no longer by my side.

When all dreams shattered in instant, you will have nothing left behind but a simple fact that … you have to walk just by yourself. I know, she wouldn’t be here again even when I need her most. I know how she loves Christmas so much, she used to has a beautiful smile when talking and listening songs about Christmas, and I don’t know how those smiles uniquely encouraged me in many untellable ways, letting go my loneliness and let a warm togetherness enters my heart.

Since she’s no longer in the world where I still stand & breath freely, I don’t know whether she would smile or not in this Christmas. But – yes I know – she would smile like she used to be, bring warm and happiness to every soul who see it. And it would bring peace upon me.

Well, its Christmas now. Miracles and peace should be all around. Don’t worry there is no way you can’t get any, just open your heart – it should be there, right in front of your heart’s door. What would do in Christmas? For me, maybe I would like to listen one of my Christmas favourite song, you might already now this song…

I don’t want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don’t care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree

I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you

I don’t want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
And I don’t care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree

I don’t need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won’t make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day

I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you

I won’t ask for much this Christmas
I won’t even wish for snow
And I, I just wanna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe

I won’t make a list and send it
To the North Pole for St. Nick
I won’t even stay awake
To hear those magic reindeer click

Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding onto me so tight
What more can I do
Oh baby, all I want for Christmas is you

All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of childrens’
Laughter fills the air

And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won’t you bring me
The one I really need

Won’t you please bring my baby to me, quickly
I don’t want a lot for Christmas
This is all I’m asking for
I just wanna see my baby

Standing right outside my door
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true

Baby, all I want for Christmas is you
All I want for Christmas is you, baby

Yes, it is “All I want for Christmas is You” a song by Mariah Carey – a singer and songwriter. I love listening this song when Christmas comes. Hope you like it too.

And here is my Christmas’ card that I’ve made it special for all my friends (including my family in Moonlight Mansion) who is celebrating Christmas – wherever you are right now. Merry Christmas to all of you, may be peace upon all of us.

My Christmas Card

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A Birthday Wish

I was just a half sleep a moment ago, I’ve been tired for whole this day. Then my phone rang from bellow my pillow, I can’t see clearly – my eyes still half opened – but I’m sure the number wasn’t registered. I was about to reject it, but something spoke strongly from within that I must answer it.

A soft voice, a bit husky, speak to me – a women voices…

Sorry, I am not late, am I not?” – meanwhile, I still can sure whose voice was that, “Happy birthday – Cahya” – the voice speaks low with a comforting tune and soft rhythm.

I knew it! – in spontaneously I replied, “Where are you now? Are you sick?” My feeling mixed. She replied with word I couldn’t catch, but somehow I do understand that she wasn’t okay at all – maybe since we are not so different.

She just came from her office this late night, I know she always busy, I never mind she forgot about something so unimportant such as this birthday. But I do mind if get herself in trouble by trying contacting me with that condition.

Have you got your dinner and bath?” I asked.

Yes, I have” – a silent cut our dimension for a moment – “I wish I could give you something, but…”

Then you should get some rest, don’t worry about that. Just take care Corgy over there – I would be fine here.”

She then whispered a pray for me, my tears flew down – and I don’t know why.

I am really sorry – something within me were protesting. I should never have that wish from the start. A night before, I blew my birthday’s candles with a wish. I don’t know why – I never thinking of it, the wish just came like that…

O Lord – send me your angel.

I should know – there were none of my prayer unfulfilled. With that very reason, I have already stop praying for all this years but the night before.

I know, you were used to be my angel, years ago, the one who was guarding my heart. But I am really sorry, I’ve let someone took my heart from me, and its already lost in the maze of time. Yet, I’ve no regret of it – since it made me understand, what love is within its form and formless feel, even it cost me to be an empty puppet without a heart.

There nothing left in me to be so called worthy for you. You are an angle, and I am just a heartless puppet. I never think if that pray would summon you – despicable me!

I should stop praying, I should stop making a wish, since it always get fulfilled. Its too dangerous. I could hurt someone unintentionally.

But I don’t know, since even my mind never know what is the true wish lay deep within me, it never known until time reveals it naturally.

The Beauty Within

The outer side maybe reveal something that draws one’s interest. But a beauty within surely would attract every single awareness around. Something we just wanna hold those kind of miracles source, and never let it goes.

But there is a moment where one just can’t hold neither grasp a moment for what would be believe as a world beyond dreams. Someday one maybe shall come again, but surely not this day.

Just not today, and shall let them wait for a little longer.

Anggrek

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Happy Independence Day

Today Republic of Indonesia entering its 65th Independence Day celebration. I would have nothing much to say, since I gave nothing much yet to this country. But let me have a word, let me have a wish. Let this country, let the people, live in harmony, peace, and togetherness. I wish people learn from a long history of this nation, that we can achieve nothing without our awareness of oneness of our people their self.

Happy Independence Day – my beloved country, Indonesia.